Monday, February 18, 2013
Friday, February 15, 2013
feb 14- now 15
looked back at previous posts. i have learned more. still not making much comfortable sense of things. i wonder if that will ever change.
IT 103 paper had some errors. i should check over my papers in college. or maybe not. i have written more now since that paper. right? maybe..
my question is why should i care about my college grades? i've come to the conclusion that it is time that i want to piece things together. that and money to feel safe. what about the people around me? i must control that too- to some extent.
mother and father:
i dont trust them. they want to give me advice(whatever that means - and this is an honest question i have) but they have all of their own problems. as i heard once, the respect of our coaches is important when trying to figure out the game(something like tht)
chemistry teacher, bio teacher first semester. do they understand things? is there something to be desired understandable at all? is it just safety and comfort that an animal craves? do humans differ? i also have some problems with the people of my past. the things they told me. but is there annoyance to be had with them? how should i react to such actions? what should guide this thinking? evolution? if so, then what? should humanity aim for peaceful, happy people? i think we have been (in some percentage) for our species lifespan. survivors and jizzers. what makes a human successful? intelligence? eagerness to be safe? stress response immune response? testoterone levels? agression? modulated aggression? modulated brains... i hear nothing from the people around me. they laugh. i dont believe them.
i read that to be a writer it is simple. u simply must bleed at the "typewriter"(-think thats it).
smoked and locked self out tonight. valentines day. BBT. enya. dank. soccer.
IT 103 paper had some errors. i should check over my papers in college. or maybe not. i have written more now since that paper. right? maybe..
my question is why should i care about my college grades? i've come to the conclusion that it is time that i want to piece things together. that and money to feel safe. what about the people around me? i must control that too- to some extent.
mother and father:
i dont trust them. they want to give me advice(whatever that means - and this is an honest question i have) but they have all of their own problems. as i heard once, the respect of our coaches is important when trying to figure out the game(something like tht)
chemistry teacher, bio teacher first semester. do they understand things? is there something to be desired understandable at all? is it just safety and comfort that an animal craves? do humans differ? i also have some problems with the people of my past. the things they told me. but is there annoyance to be had with them? how should i react to such actions? what should guide this thinking? evolution? if so, then what? should humanity aim for peaceful, happy people? i think we have been (in some percentage) for our species lifespan. survivors and jizzers. what makes a human successful? intelligence? eagerness to be safe? stress response immune response? testoterone levels? agression? modulated aggression? modulated brains... i hear nothing from the people around me. they laugh. i dont believe them.
i read that to be a writer it is simple. u simply must bleed at the "typewriter"(-think thats it).
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